Pre-t picture

Hey I just thought I'd post a picture so I could have a pre-t pic up. My hair is usually styled but it's late. I might post another one later.

First Day of Therapy!

So I just got back from my first therapy appointment and it was good. She's really nice and actually has a sense of humor (for whatever reason I thought it was going to be q and a and her writing stuff down, which it was but it wasn't just that). We talked about stuff and she said I probably definitively have Gender Identity Disorder. She did briefly talk about how she thought it was not right how that was even in the DSM just like how homosexuality was once in there, so that was good. She referred me to a support group that's around my area and I am considering going. I have a lot on my plate in regards to school but I know that it will probably be best if I do go because it will help with a few things and make it easier to deal with school.

I have another appointment with her next week at 9 am. Bleh! I hate mornings but you gotta do what you gotta do. I don't really know what else to write except that I am so far happy with her as being my therapist. She is totally cool. She did mess up my name but that's because cell phone's aren't totally clear so she called me Sin when I got there. That is an odd name. But I corrected her and she continued calling me Finn which was awesome! I think that's everything for now. If I think of anything else I'll post it!

First Therapy Session Tomorrow!

Okay so I just called and set up my first therapy session and it turns out she's available tomorrow! I'm really nervous but she seems nice! Now all I have to do is find this place.

What did I do and say? Hmm... let me think. Well first I tried calling before the class I had today but there was no answer and I didn't want to leave a voice mail. Then, after watching some weird movie in my anthropology class, I called again and she answered. I gave her some info and she asked why I was coming in. I said, "I'm transgendered. I don't know if you-" she cut me off "yes, that's a specialty of mine." Awesome! I thought. At least I won't have to worry about someone who doesn't know what they are doing... I hope. So I thought through my schedule and we came up with tomorrow at noon. It's so soon!

I'm kind of freaking out right now. What if I don't say things right... or if I'm not able to describe what I'm feeling inside (I often have trouble with this). I guess I'll just have to wait and see what will happen and I will post something tomorrow saying how it went.

Update

Well not much has changed since last time except for the fact that I moved into an apartment and school has started. While I did come out to my roommate and she seemed cool with it she has only referred to me as Finn twice. Once in a text and the other on a sticky note. I don't really want to say anything because 1) she's never here and we haven't really talked a lot so we're not that close yet and 2) I don't want to bug her by being all in her face about it every time she makes a mistake.

My parents are still the same... except this one time when my mom started calling me 'he' and referring to me to my sister as 'your brother'. It was awesome!... oh wait, that was a dream...

I haven't started therapy yet and I'm not sure when but I hope it's soon. I don't think I'll be able to stay sane if it's not soon.

The only good thing that's happened so far in terms of transitioning is that I went to an LGBTQ meeting on campus and when we did introductions I told them that I identify as FtM and that I wanted to go by Finn and male pronouns and they were pretty supportive. The most surprising thing about that was that I came out to like 20 people and I wasn't really nervous about it or anything. It felt kind of good.

That's all I can think of for right now but I'll post more as soon as I can.